i think i just had enough.
i would just love it if the break up was official n more mutual.
come on, we are going on with this fake relationship just for the sake of maintaining the relationship when there has never been recently....and what more when there is no trust.no communication.no understaning.no paitence.no everything.everything has a limit...n too much of testing water has caused our relationship to grow so false over time.its not like i dont knw what is going around. i do know. i know it very well.infact too well.it has just become too false.

what's this relationship when there is not even a pinch of truth??

i really wish it ends this way cause the truth is i need a break.not to start all over again, like how u are doing it time n again...but instead to start it a fresh.




the truth is i had never wanted to be the first.i always believed in being the last and lasting one...


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today is really one of the screwed up days.
early morning already was pissed off by some reason..
n it could have gotten any better throughout the day...

please.
u want to show me that freaking attitude for all i care.
just fuck off.
cause the truth is i can show better attitude than that.
n those close to me knw what attitude-showing skills i have (right sathi??...haha.)
it not like i m obliged to do it.
neither was i required to do it.
i did it just like tat w no intention in mind..but thanks alot to what i got in return.
indeed, i feel very appreciated.

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please take care.dont ask me why but i just feel it.having a very bad feeling like something is very wrong...and i was reminded of something not very recent.i just hope its just a mere stressed out feeling.seriously. i feel very scared for u cause it just happens somewhat or another n i damn dunno what that something is. just knw if i avoid u..its cox of this n give me some time to try to get over this dunno-what-is-going-2-happen-but-something-is-going-2-happen feeling.it sucks to have this kinda feeling.i know u wld understand.n please please take care.nt cox i m so caring 4 u la...but cox i dun think u wld wan me 2 cry bcox of u ;p