feeling sickly n sick. i dunno la.just not well.havent really been this sick recently. i mean except getting diarrheoa. its been a long time since i got fever n cough.n i m coughing so badly.feeling so tired n drained.

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thanks alot.i didnt have to hear that from u.like seriously i dunno y i m just starting to hate hearing that kinda stuff from u over and over again recently.honestly wad i sae does nt seem to coincide w my rxn.JEALOUS!!!
like a close fwen has alwaes told me...she alwaes stood w that fact tat it wld happen.oh wells, she knws me the best i can sae.n i knw it just started off as a joke.literally...
but nw...i just dunno wad situation i have put myself into....so much of lying so much of pretending.n i dunno why i m continuing...
like i alwaes believe,there is no r/s without basic communication. n neither is there a lasting r/s when there is so much of lying n faking around.
i m sorrie, its just nt me.i m nt like that.n i dun like it...i dunno why.i just dunno what we are doing.but one thing i knw for sure...we r nt at whr we started. n we can nv go back there.i m just hating it.i m just hating it to the core.(it as in nt the place we r at rite nw...but the place we mite end up very soon.)
the sucking thing of it all is tat i cant happen to tell anyone abt it.i dunno how to sae also...whr to start??whr to end??wad to sae?? wad not to sae??if u didnt realise..just too many things happened too fast...n i have been trying very hard to open this topic to u n thats also not working a shit.either u avoid or i m stuck for words...
as for now. i think the best is for me 2 follow my heart...i think it wld b the best.if u have to hate me for wad i m gg to do.then hate...its nt new also.atleast its better than getting hurt.over n over.haix.i totally give up la...i think things wld b better off this way.people wld b happier also.i mean 'the truth could prevail'.i m sorrie.

oh wells, if u seem to understand what crap i haf written then the chances are i m talking abt u.(n i m sure u knw me well enuff to understand what i m refering to.) n if u dont understand just dont bother i m all okae.see i m smiling=D